I’m being interviewed in Aontacht, Druidic Dawn’s magazine, in the next issue and have been awash in blissful busy-ness answering the questions about music, my Druidic path…. Answering questions is such a valuable experience, since it forces you to clarify and articulate matters of the heart and spirit that you would otherwise just leave in an amorphous, half-considered mass.
This is why that question-centered memes are so popular in blogging. They’re writing prompts, of course. But more importantly — if you take them seriously, that is — they’re thought prompts. And we all need thought prompts because thoughts, like any well-used vehicle, tend to run ruts in the same tracks, over and over. We may feel our reasons, justifications and belief structures in our hearts, but we truly don’t know them until we articulate them with words. Speech organizes mind.
One of the realizations that hovered just beyond my tongue, that I had difficulty putting to speech, was the simple fact that the physical manifestation of White Cat Grove has ended. Simply put, the amount of work it took — writing the rituals, leading them, cleaning the house, cooking a meal, playing the hostess, transporting my fellow priestess, and then returning to clean — was starting to wear on me like water on a stone. There is a lot of work involved in running groups, whether for two or twenty, and not too many ready hands. Druidic groves are less appealing to the masses than Wiccan circles for a variety of reasons. And in this age of social networking, we’re less inclined to invest ourselves in groups; they come and go, like Facebook invitations, something you can attend or not on a whim.
Right now, I’d rather use the time — when it’s not used for my family connections and my home life — to focus on my own spiritual path, my music, my writing. The metaphysical version of White Cat — the wordpress blog — remains intact; it’s a part of my spiritual work, my clarification of inner thoughts and truths. I won’t rule out returning to a physical grove of people, either — but there needs to be more people interested in it and, importantly, willing to share the work.
Today, I am looking forward to some solitary spiritual pursuits: working on my article on Boann for the next Henge Happenings, and celebrating a Mistletoe Rite by myself. And I feel more calm in my heart, knowing that this is the right choice.